Feelin' Groovy

Okay, what the heck just happened....Kyle had late soccer tonight. The game didn't start until 9pm so I hung out with him for awhile when I got home rather than taking my usual straight out the door to workout approach. The plan was to do just a quick 2 mile run when he left for soccer just to get my body moving for the day (not part of my training schedule). When he was getting dressed for soccer I was getting dressed to run and when he was walking out the door I was supposed to be walking out the door too. But instead I sat down. Why I sat down, I have no idea. I was lacking motivation to begin with and then I was in my comfy gym clothes sitting on the floor...and then I was in my comfy gym clothes laying on the floor...and then I had decided not to run. So as I was watching "Say Yes to the Dress" I was also zoning out and these random thoughts kept popping into my head. Grace's dad asking me if I was still on track working out every day, the fact that Kyle was out running his butt off at soccer, the alert that "Biggest Loser" was starting to record on our tv...Okay, I could sit here and feel guilty for the rest of the night, or I could suck it up and just go run my two miles...like 20 minutes of my life. Not so hard. I laced up my shoes and went down to the treadmill and did my time.

Now to you that may not sound like a huge deal...so what, I wasn't going to run and then I did. What's so impressive about that? Its big to me because it used to be that I could talk myself out of doing anything. I could talk myself out of going to class, going to bed on time, stopping after one beer, cleaning the house, stopping after one cookie, or of course, working out. I can't remember the last time I had it in my head that I WASN'T going to do something that I should do, and I talked myself INTO it. Like I said, it may not be a big deal to you, but I feel like my whole mindset has changed. Which means my whole life has changed. I can do whatever I want to. I just have to WANT to. How's that for an update?